20 ans

some boys always know how to make you laugh
some boys rattle you with the way they brag
some boys make you go green when they take off their clothes
some boys fascinate you with the depth of their voice
some boys self-manifest like a tv commercial
some boys fear you when they ask for a facial
some boys confuse you with thier complexity
some boys awe you 'cause they don't give a fuck about society
some boys believe in all the right things in life
those boys shine bright like a good idea
they puzzle you, they do puzzle you
you play it, you play him, play over and over
freeze the picture

you fall for ther ones that are straight as an arrow
you cyber-stalk them, you lose it, you get out of control
you become their best friend, becasue else, you don't know
you remain anxious worrying about tomorrow
you are coded to grasp the one that is on the other side
you never realise it is only your youth that keeps your skin bright
you tell yourself this place is no good and you have to run
you can't sleep at nights, you suffer hell under the sun
you fall for the ones that are straight as an arrow
you want them till you decay, till you become a shadow

some boys are told they can't be like the other boys
some boys are touched too early, they were slightly taller than sex toys
some boys never look back on the past, they follow their desires
some boys waste their lives hiding and become professional liars
some boys are lucky they learned somewhere along the way
some boys are saved last-minute from a dusty shelf of lost and found
some boys are blessed they came across men who are humble and honest
some boys are lucky they learned they could be just one of the boys


in the memory of my admiration attacks that never really turnerd into a sexual identity...